Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Durban, South Africa is more like Houston than it is like Uganda. I don’t know about rural South Africa. We are in the city – the big city. The metropolitan area of Durban includes as many people as Harris and the surrounding counties. It is located as far south of the Equator as Houston is north of it, and it is on the coast. The weather the past few days has been the equivalent of a normal Houston December. Refineries and ships make Durban the largest port in the southern hemisphere.
Unlike Houston, Durban is hilly, right up to the beach. This is a beautiful and lush place. The water system is one of the purest in the world, so we do not have to rely on the bottled stuff as we did in Uganda and Mexico. And unlike Houston, they don’t drink much coffee here. If you ask for coffee you are likely to be given instant Nescafe as if that were the same thing. British influence. I suppose the Brits would think nothing of asking for tea and being given Nestea. Right. I’ll be leaving here on the Fourth of July, the day we celebrate our Independence from King George and his tea. Serves them right.
The people we have met here have mostly been like the men and women you might meet in Clear Lake. They live fairly affluent lifestyles. They are business men and women, professionals. Some of them know Jesus and love him deeply. Others are seeking. Gary and Cheryl Price work with this people group.
On Monday evening we attended a dinner for business men and women at a beautiful country club. The dinner was delicious – roasted lamb, curried chicken, various vegetables. Patrick Forrester was one of two featured speakers that evening. He did an awesome job of sharing his work and his faith with the crowd of about two hundred. Approximately a third of those attending came as guests of their Christian friends and were not themselves believers. Patrick talked about the importance of finding balance and priority in one’s life and not letting work become your god.
Melinda was seated next to Errol, a colored man (That means not black and not white, sort of. Officially it is not a category any longer, since apartheid, but people still use those terms.). I only mention that he was “colored” because Errol was the first colored civil engineering student to graduate from the university here and he was in charge of building a major highway that allows large trucks access to the port. She asked him, “What do you love to do?” That’s a penetrating question. It gets to one’s heart. He replied honestly, “I guess I love to work. That’s what I do most of the time. Work. I don’t have time for much else.”
The other speaker was Brian Stocks, a very successful businessman here who has a rich testimony of coming to Christ and rearranging priorities in his own life. The two presentations complemented each other well. After the dinner, tea and biscuits (they are really cookies) were served and people were invited to stay to talk. Many stayed for more than an hour. Gary and his organization (Priority Associates, a ministry of Campus Crusade for Christ) will be following up with those who attended.
On Tuesday our team took a tour of the city of Durban with Gary and Noel, one of the elders in his church. We visited the Indian market and the large Indian section of town, where more than 250,000 Indians live. Wednesday Melinda, Diana, and Pamm went to lunch with some Zulu women, all of them teachers. The depth of the women's spirituality was impressive. Melinda came home wearing a colorful Zulu neckband they gave her. In the afternoon, we all visited the Durban beach for an hour or so. International surfing competition begins here on Friday. More than 100,000 people will be on the beach. Patrick spent the day speaking in four or five venues in the business community. We all enjoyed supper with our host families. Melinda and I played with Allison (age 3) and Lauren (age 10), practicing up on our grandparenting skills.
Today the team will drive to a game park about 2 hours north of Durban. We're supposed to see the "big five" (lions, elephants, rhinos, buffalo, and leopards, [oh, my]). The Forresters head home on Saturday. Pamm may be heading out on Tuesday. On Monday I take off for Thailand and Melinda and Jenna will be staying on in Durban for another week.
I'll write about my experience with a Mango fly later.
Saturday, June 25, 2005
It is Saturday, our last day in Uganda. Patrick, Larry, Andrew and I just returned from a trip to the central market in downtown Mbarara. We left the women shopping. All of us rode downtown in Larry’s van, but the guys took picky-pickys (or boda bodas) back. Pickys are small motorcycles that are parked all over town. Mbarara has more than eight hundred of them. For 500 shillings (about thirty cents) they will take you anywhere in town.
This afternoon we will finish varnishing some benches we built for the church in Nakinombe, visit the hospital, and pack up for a 6:30 AM departure from Larry’s house tomorrow. We will make the five hour drive to Entebbe and take off for Durban about 3:30 PM. While Sunday morning worshippers gather at UBC, we will be in the air over Africa.
On Thursday I went with Sally, Adam, and Andrew to buy lumber to build the church benches. It was not exactly a trip to Lowe’s. The lumber was approximately a 1 X 9 and approximately 13 feet long. It was also approximately straight. Andrew and Adam did most of the cutting on Thursday and Patrick helped them assemble one prototype. On Friday morning, most of the team stayed and worked on the project. We cut and sanded the parts, built twenty and put two coats of varnish on them. Five feet long and eighteen inches high, they will serve as pews for a mud and stick church building. The cost was about four dollars per bench. A few of them now await the second coat of varnish.
Melinda worked at the church to complete the two worship banners she was guiding the students to make. One proclaims "We preach Christ crucified, the power and wisdom of God." The other, declares, "The leaves of the tree of life are for the healing of the nations." Each is an intricate design cut from ten foot pieces of Tyvek, donated by Dupont. Many hands, much work, and a lot of hours went into each of these, and they are beautiful.
Friday night was the T.G.I.F. program at the church. Each Friday the university students gather to eat popcorn, play table games, listen to music, and enjoy each other’s company. They usually have some sort of program as well. The program last night was Col. Patrick Forrester, who did an incredible job of sharing his life, the gospel, and explaining the work of a NASA astronaut. The students were enthralled, and asked questions until nearly 11:00 PM. Many stayed afterwards for more discussion.
After a visit to the hospital this afternoon, and some final work on the benches, we will pack our bags, eat dinner, and watch a movie. And tomorrow we will leave Uganda behind. But we will be taking some things with us. The up close and personal engagement with the poverty and needs of these beautiful people. The faces of a thousand children. A vision of the devastation of AIDS on the African continent. The memories of dozens of friendships forged by working together in acts of compassionate ministry: Naboth, Aloysius, Peace, Avas, Gerald, Mildred, Mary, Sam, and others. The partnership with American missionaries offering themselves on this field alongside Larry and Sally: Kari, Barry, Scarlett, and Debbie. The faces of the forty-seven village pastors who came to Mbarara to study last week: Ezra, George, Aloys, and their brothers. I will also take with me the intent to return to this place.
When the plane leaves the ground tomorrow afternoon, the team will attempt to shift gears as we prepare for a week of ministry in the more urban and westernized setting of Durban, South Africa. We will focus our minds and hearts on the partnership we will forge with Gary and Cheryl Price who are attempting to reach into the very secular culture of their city. Pray for us as the journey contines.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Luke 6:20-21 Looking at his disciples, he said: "Blessed are you who are poor for yours is the kingdom of God. Blessed are you who hunger now, for you will be satisfied. Blessed are you who weep now, for you will laugh.
Those are the words of Jesus. I know they are true, but not on any literal plane. The poor are not blessed just because they are poor. The hungry have no blessing inherent to their hunger. You look into their eyes and you know that it is so. Those poor and hungry I have met who have discovered life in the kingdom of God, however, do know and express a blessedness to their life that is remarkable.
Yesterday in the village of Kiyanja (chee-YAN-jah) I sat in the combination home and store of a young woman named Ruth. She is an AIDS patient. Her "store" was a small room from which she sold used clothing and did some sewing. Her bed, no more than a cot really, is in the front of the room, near the window. She is tired and weak from the disease and is losing weight. The rent on the building strains her ability to provide for herself and her five children.
On the wall hangs a sign that says, "Jesus is the Answer." When I asked her about that, light returned to her eyes and she affirmed that she has become a follower of Jesus. She says she depends on the presence and strength of God in her life to live each day, and I believe her. I offered to pray for this sister in Christ and she said, "Pray for me to know peace. Pray for me to have strength. Pray for me to have enough to feed my children." Ruth is blessed, not by her poverty, but in spite of it.
Harriet lives a half mile from Ruth’s shop, just down the highway that runs from Mbarara to Busheyni. Jenna and I walked to Harriet’s home, accompanied by our guide and translator for the day, a 40 year old woman with bright eyes and a ready smile, named "Peace." Peace took the opportunity to teach us as we walked, asking us to repeat common greetings in Runyankore, or pointing out the people digging through the tall grass with their fingers, "They are looking for mushrooms." She bent down and picked up a handkerchief full of the fungi someone had gathered. She told us of her life – daughter of an Anglican (Church of Uganda) pastor, coming to faith as a child, marrying an Independent Baptist pastor who now serves in the Church of Uganda, and of her sense of calling to work with HIV/AIDS patients through Words of Hope.
Harriet’s home is a mud hut located behind a better looking house. I suppose a half-dozen of the mud structures were back there. A man stepped out of one of them as we approached, offering us the same hospitality we have found in each place: "You are welcome!" Peace called for Harriet and she came to the door of her place and quickly invited us in. Another 8’X10’ house like others we’d been in. A sheet draped over a rope divided it into two rooms. Harriet had a bed in one corner and a simple bench against the wall. She offered Peace the bed as a place to sit and insisted that Jenna and I take the bench. Harriet sat on the floor.
We asked about her health and how she was doing managing the disease. She spoke of all she had to do and of her weariness and of the pains in here back and neck. She, too, was one of the blessed poor because she, too, knew life in the kingdom of God. Harriet talked about her faith. When we asked her how we could pray with her, she asked prayer for strength and for her poverty.
We attempted two other visits that morning, but found no one at home. So the three of us looked for a place to sit and await our ride back home. The Heavy Duty Bakery was next to Ruth’s shop. The bakery’s front door was propped open by a small bench. We asked the owner if we cold use the bench while we waited. He offered it gladly.
We sat for an hour. Three small poor children played around us, teasing each other or chasing the two chickens that were running loose. Lunch time was approaching and the aromas coming out of the bakery door made my mouth water. But I did not have any money with me. Not a penny. I watched people come and go right in front of my face. They arrived on foot, on bicycles, or on bodas (small motorcylcles used as a taxi service). They walked past us, into the bakery, and came out with bags of rolls or loaves of bread. My hunger grew as I saw the food and breathed in the smell. But I had not a penny to buy anything. A moment of hunger and poverty. But not a life of it.
The stories could be multiplied, you know that. But is there really anything I can do other than feel sad about their condition or guilty for all that I have? Yes, there is.
You can act on a personal level. Compassion International is a reputable organization that provides support for poor children in nations around the world. Most of the money actually gets to the recipient. Sponsoring a child is one personal touch. (Our family sponsors a young teen-age girl in Uganda.)
You can act on a social or political level. We Americans imagine ourselves a generous people. Yet less than one percent of our national budget is shared with the poor of the world in the form of humanitarian aid. A movement is afoot to change that. The movement is called ONE. It calls on our President and Congress to take several concrete actions, including allocating an additional one percent of our budget to address the issues of poverty in Africa. ONE is supported by a variety of individuals and organizations, including well-known Christian leaders and Christian ministries. You can click on the link in the right column and visit the ONE website. You can sign a petition that requests our President to act.
What difference would anadditional ONE percent of our budget make?
With an additional ONE percent of our budget:
- We can help prevent 10 million children from becoming AIDS orphans
- We can help get 104 million children into grade school. 30 million girls in sub-Saharan Africa don’t have access to schools. Getting girls into school is one of the best ways to improve their futures, their health and the health of their families.
- We can help provide water to almost 900 million people around the globe.
- We can save almost 6.5 million children under 5 from dying of diseases that could be prevented with low-cost measures like vaccination or a well for clean water.
ONE percent of the U.S. budget is $25 billion. (You might recall the President asking for an additional $80 billion last January to continue the war in Iraq). Redirecting that much money would have to be done over time. Directed to honest governments, private charities and faith-based organizations, this support would provide the tools and resources they need to really make a difference. American support would be part of a compact with poor countries who fight corruption and use their own resources to help their people out of poverty. American leadership would be an example for rich countries in Europe and Asia to do their share to help the poorest people in the world. This is actually something that could be done in this generation.
You can act on a spiritual level. Pray for the leaders of the eight richest industrialized countries in the world when they gather next month at Gleneagles, Scotland in the G-8 Summit. The United States, Britain, France, Germany, Italy, Canada, Japan and Russia will consider forgiving more than $16 billion in debt owed by many developing nations, mostly in Africa.
This past weekend I preached for the first time since mid-April. My text was a saying of Jesus recorded, not in any of the four Gospels, but in the Book of Acts. The apostle Paul, speaking to the leaders of the churches in Ephesus, says: "In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.’" (Acts 20:35). Pray that those who have so richly received will do the hard work of helping the weak, experiencing the truth of Jesus’ teaching, the more blessed state of giving. And pray that we, as a church, might live with this same spirit.
"Blessed are you poor," said Jesus, "because yours is the Kingdom of Heaven." The Kingdom is theirs, not because they are poor, but in spite of the fact. And so they are blessed.
"And blessed," said Jesus, "are those who give." They are even more blessed than those who receive.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
You don’t hear so much about AIDS in the U.S. anymore. Not that it’s gone, it’s just not news the way that it was. You’d think we’d found the cure for it, like polio or smallpox, but we haven’t. It is still there. Sixty thousand new HIV infections a year. For a while, from the amount of coverage the disease received, you would have thought that it was threatening the future of our country. In reality, HIV infection affects about one person in three hundred in the U.S. We have fourteen times as many alcoholics in the population. More people die each year in the U.S. from cancer (500,000) or heart disease (750,000) than have died of AIDS since it was first diagnosed here (430,000). For us, HIV/AIDS became a political issue, associated with the homosexual community. I say that not to downplay the seriousness of the issue in the U.S., but to compare what we experience to what is happening here in Africa. Unfortunately, compassion does not run deep for the issue, even (or sometimes, especially) among Christians.
For the people of Uganda, and much of Africa, the issue is different. HIV/AIDS cannot be ignored here. It is everywhere. Billboards and posters remind people of the need for sexual abstinence and for faithfulness in marriage. Funerals take people away from work daily as family members succumb to the disease. Children, often infected when they enter the world, are left to raise themselves and their siblings as their parents die young. Husbands die leaving their wife (wives) to fend for themselves in a world that is not especially friendly to women. Infected by their husbands, they are damaged goods. No man will have them. Google "AIDS in Africa" for lots of information, or for a moving, but dated Time Magazine piece, CLICK HERE.
Uganda is one of the success stories. At one point, 18% of the population was HIV+. Now it is down to 6% (eighteen times the rate of the U.S.). In Botswana, half the population is HIV+, 150 times the rate in the U.S.) . In countries of southern Africa, the numbers run around 24-33% (68-99 X U.S.).
The AIDS clinic at the Mbarara University Hospital where Larry Pepper works serves 6500 patients a month. Words of Hope is a ministry that the University Baptist Church, Mbarara, has developed to address the physical and spiritual needs of the clients of that clinic. Teams of visitors go out daily to find patients in their village homes. They inquire about their health, about their needs, and share with them the hope of the gospel.
On Monday I had my first opportunity to participate in the Words of Hope ministry. I accompanied Naboth, a Ugandan pastor, and Aloysius, a seminary student, on an afternoon visit. We traveled in Naboth’s small pickup truck. Aloysius rode in the back. Naboth drove us five or six miles out into a country village to pick up a man who would help us. He is a soldier in the Ugandan army and we were going to go onto the local military base to visit. "Dirt poor" does not describe the village. Dirt might have enriched the place.
We made our way back to the main highway and then to the army base. A few words from our "guide" and soldiers opened the big iron-barred gate for us to enter. We drove to the base hospital where several clients from the clinic had been, and possible still were, patients in the medical ward. A tall, muscular Ugandan captain wearing fatigues, black boots, a beret, and large, goggle-like glasses met us outside the hospital. Captain Richard is the administrator of the hospital. The man invited us into his office and listened as we explained our mission. He decided to help.
The Captain Richard took us to the hospital’s medical ward, a long room with rows of beds on either side. It was not full and it was relatively clean. He scanned the list of names we brought with us and told us that these men were no longer patients in the hospital, although they had recently been. He suggested that we might visit the TB ward. He thought one of them was there. A counselor from the hospital, a bright, well-educated officer, joined us.
The TB ward is located a quarter of a mile or so away from the other wards, so we walked across the base. In the distance you could hear the crack of rifle fire, as soldiers practiced their marksmanship. Squads of recruits jogged by chanting their cadence in Swahili. Children were everywhere. I’m certain many of them had never seen a white man (muzungu) up close. A pair of four or five year olds saw us coming. One of them became wide-eyed, not with curiosity, but with fear. (I later found out that in the villages children are often told that white people will eat them.) He behaved like he believed that. He ran as fast as he could, screaming. The soldiers with me laughed. I knelt down and invited the boys to me. One of them came and shook my hand. I told him to call his friend. The second boy came reluctantly. We exchanged the greeting that is common with school children learning English: "How are you?" "I am fine." Then I asked him, "What is your name?" I might as well have said, "Do you want me to fry you or boil you?" His eyes became wide again, he screamed and ran away.
At the TB ward we found one of the young men we were looking for. James is 18 and unmarried. Captain Richard located another of the clients, who had been discharged from the hospital and brought him to us. His name was also James. He is 29 and has a wife and three children. James the First spoke only Swahili. James the Second spoke Runyunkore. Aloysius engaged them in conversation, first about their medications and their physical conditions. We were standing beside a window in the cinderblock hospital ward. A steady flow of children’s faces appeared in the window as word spread that a white man was there.
Both James’ expressed a desire to talk about spiritual matters and Aloysius gave them copies of the Gospel of John and spoke to them of Christ and the hope that is available through him. Meanwhile, Captain Richard had located another client we were inquiring about, Captain Nathan, age 68. Captain Nathan has 27 children, 15 grandchildren, and who knows how many great-grandchildren. He is a 43 year veteran of the Ugandan army. The Captain enlisted back in 1962, shortly after Uganda received its independence from Great Britain. He has been a believer in Christ since 1991. He is infected with the HIV virus, as is his wife. At one point, as much as 75% of the army was HIV Positive.
Captain Nathan is an educated man who speaks several languages well. He became the translator for Aloysius, providing the gospel to James the First in his native Swahili. Both James’ expressed a desire to receive Christ. We prayed with them and encouraged them, and gave them some material to read. Others gathered around as the gospel was being shared and asked for copies of the Gospel of John as well. The young counselor, who had accompanied us, told us he was one of the ministers at a church located just a hundred meters from the barracks. He was enthusiastic about our being there for the soldiers.
Captain Nathan invited us to his home on the base to meet his wife and pray with her. We walked another half mile across the base. The quarters provided for the soldiers’ families were dozens of long cinderblock structures with tin roofs divided into very small rooms. Freshly laundered camouflaged fatigues hung everywhere. Half naked (you decide which half) children swarmed between the buildings. Shallow ditches flowed with sewage across our path. As we walked I asked him about his military service and his life. At one point I asked, "How many soldiers are on this base?" "That is a government secret," he told me. "I cannot tell you." Sorry.
The Captain’s home was one of these small dwellings, with a couple of rooms. We entered a room that was 8’x10’. Couches sat against the walls on the right and the left, a TV was located on the far wall and a chair on the near one. The walls were covered with pages from a newspaper and various small posters. This had been the Captain’s home for the past nine years. He grew a small vegetable garden out back.
We met Captain Nathan’s wife, and after a half-hour visit talking about everything from life in Uganda during Idi Amin’s reign of terror to life in Christ, we read scripture, prayed, and walked back to our pickup. Captain Nathan walked with us. He told us how much it meant to him for us to have come to see him and his wife. He said he was in his house when a messenger came telling him someone was asking for him at the hospital. When he came and found it was us pastors, he said he was very comforted. He asked us to return.
Patrick, Diana, and Andrew Forrester arrived at the Pepper’s home safe and sound around one o’clock. Patrick went to work right away. While I was on the army base, Col. Patrick Forrester was at one of the local high schools speaking to about 1200 students. He was well-received and his presence has opened a ministry at the school for Larry and his team that they have not had before.
Earlier in the day Melinda went with Barry and Joseph (a UBC member) to a Bible storying group Barry has begun at a local security guard company. At about 9:00 AM, when the guards get off-duty, they gather to hear Barry tell Bible stories. More than fifty men came on Monday. Barry told the story of creation and they listened and participated with the same enthusiasm shown by the people of the village last Wednesday.
Melinda and Jenna began a banner-making project with UBC members on Monday. They are creating two ten-foot horizontal paper-cut banners for the church this week. About 25 students showed up. Since they had more hands available to work than they had knives, the work was shared over the three hour period. They will meet each day from 12-3 to complete the projects.
Last night we held our second Bible study for the university students, dealing with principles of biblical interpretation. Pamm, Sally, Melinda, Barry, and Larry served as small-group discussion leaders. We gave Pat and Diana the first night off from small-group leadership, since they were freshly on the scene and still dazed by the travel. They enter active duty tonight (Tuesday). We returned to the Pepper’s home for a late dinner (Mexican food) and the Forrester’s were welcomed into the warm and joyful fellowship we have been sharing all week.
This morning some of us will go to a local village for Words of Hope visits and to invite people to the beginnings of a Bible storying group on Thursday. At noon the banner group will work. Tonight we will lead students in a study of how the Bible is used to help us with ethical decisions in our lives. God will provide other opportunities along the way.
AIDS is not going to go away. Not in Africa or in the U.S. As Larry tells his church and the pastors he trains, the enemy is not the people who are infected. The enemy is the virus, and the enemy is strong here, destroying lives of men, women, and children. The scope of the problem is overwhelming. Advances in treatment is prolonging life and raising its quality. Education is helping to reduce the problem in some places. But the tide has not come close to turning. The medical work Larry and his colleagues do is vital. But so are words of hope.
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Matthew 4:18-25 As Jesus was walking beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen. "Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men." At once they left their nets and followed him. Going on from there, he saw two other brothers, James son of Zebedee and his brother John. They were in a boat with their father Zebedee, preparing their nets. Jesus called them, and immediately they left the boat and their father and followed him. Jesus went throughout Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom, and healing every disease and sickness among the people. News about him spread all over Syria, and people brought to him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed, and he healed them. Large crowds from Galilee, the Decapolis, Jerusalem, Judea and the region across the Jordan followed him.
Friday and Saturday I visited a familiar place that was different than any place I have ever been before. It was familiar in that it was the place compassion grows. I have been there on other occasions. It is the place Jesus took his first disciples when he said, "Follow me." He took them to the place of human hurts and needs. He showed them that being in the midst of such needs is the place one goes when he follows Jesus. I have been there before.
But it was different than any place I’ve ever been. The medical clinic was set up in a small village outside of Lyantonde Town. Like the 4077th, five vehicles laden with supplies and twenty-seven people moved into Nakinombe (nachee-NOME-bay) and set up our operations at about 9:30 on Friday morning. The mud and stick church building was divided by ropes and bedsheets into a clinic with a triage area and four examining rooms. A blue plastic tarp spread its shade just outside the door for the registration and reception area. A screen shelter set up behind the church became the "evangelism room," where the gospel would be shared. A big, black ten gallon barrel with a spigot was set up outside for hand-washing. The back of the Toyota van was the mobile pharmacy. A mud pit latrine served as our restroom facilities. At the house next to the church a half-dozen women worked all day to prepare a single meal of matoke, posho, cabbage, rice, and beans for the group.
By 10:30 we were receiving the first of what would be 575 patients over two days. Business was slower on Friday (only 175) because of a funeral in the village. But it picked up the next day. We stopped registering patients at 1:30 PM on Saturday and began to turn people away. We continued to process those we had registered until 6:00 PM, and then we struck camp.
On Friday evening, after supper, when the sun went down, we set up a video projector and showed "The Jesus Film" to a crowd of two hundred or more, who sat on the ground and watched the movie until 10:30 PM, and then walked in the pitch black dark back to their huts.
We spent the night in tents, sleeping on the ground. The women’s tents were set up inside the church on the dirt floor that was covered with straw. They have no pews, so people sit on the floor. The men’s tents, and my family’s, were set up outside. The rocks under our tent floor were the size of my fist.
That was the setting and schedule, but I want to describe the experience. When the people began to arrive, they came in droves. They came with their disease and injury. Women came bearing their sick children in their arms and on their backs. One infant who had malaria was sent into Lyantonde to the hospital there, but the woman returned with the child’s corpse during the movie that evening. They came in the brightest colors you can imagine. Many came with deeply expressed gratitude for our being there. Women came out of their strong patriarchal culture and bowed to their knees before me, a man, a white man, to hand me their prescriptions. It was terribly uncomfortable. More so than the rocks in the bed.
I helped out in the pharmacy, mostly, where Melinda, Sally, and Jenna were the pharmacists, dispensing what the physicians had prescribed. People pressed into us with their needs and we gave what we had. Before the two days were completed, we were running low on supplies.
Pamm worked at the registration area, where patients were given a number and a piece of paper to carry through the process. Next they went to the triage area where their vital signs were taken and recorded and their complaint registered. Then, they saw a physician who examined them, diagnosed their condition, and prescribed treatment. They next went to the evangelism tent, heard a presentation of the gospel and received prayer. Thirty-five adult made commitments of life to Jesus Christ. Finally, they brought their prescription to the pharmacy to be filled. Once their prescription was ready, one of the medical students explained how to take the medication. Five hundred seventy five people went through this process with us in two days.
During all this, we had a flood of experiences. I walked across the road to a small mud hut. A medical student went with me to translate. We spoke with an old woman there, a Muslim, who was selling fried grasshoppers. Two Catholic women were with her. A couple of "born again" men were also there. We talked about God and his grace. She asked lots of questions about America ("Do you have tribes there?" "Do you have grasshoppers?") She expressed her gratitude to us for coming to bring healing to the people.
No one spoke much English in the village. Some of the children, who had studied in school could speak a bit, and enjoyed practicing it with us. A group of boys found Jenna enchanting. "Your daughter is beautiful." "How old does an African man have to be to come to America and look for a wife?" I could have gotten several cows for her had I wanted to. They enjoyed having their photos taken on a digital camera and then seeing their own faces.
A group of children gathered around the Toyota van on Friday evening to sing songs with Melinda, ask questions about America, and generally to be up close to a muzungu (white person, literally, "one who runs in circles"). This same group sat at Melinda’s feet during the film and wanted a running commentary: "Who is that man?" "Is that one Jesus?"
We finally left about 6:30 PM on Saturday. Men, women, and children lined the road and waved to us as we left. We left them with a few pills to rid them of worms, relieve their pain, and cure their infections. We left them with the good news that Jesus does know them, love them, and offer them life and hope. We left the village with a different view of the Baptist church that stood in their midst. Pastor Vianny and his wife Juliette will have their ministry strengthened. The church will have a chance to be more effective.
When we left we were spent. Our medical supplies were low. Our legs were tired from standing. We were dirty and dusty and hungry and sleepy. We had been to that place, that place Jesus takes his people, the place where compassion grows.
I tried to live as a person of prayer in the middle of that operation. Lacking both language skills and medical knowledge, I was in the role of "Radar" or "Klinger" to Larry’s "Colonel Potter." I could not do many of the things I would like to have done. So I decided I would pray for people as I walked among them or took their prescriptions and read their names. But that was a challenge. Things were so busy and hectic. I found compassion a difficult "feeling" to sustain. But I’m not certain compassion is a feeling. It is a response of obedience to the compassionate God who loves these people, who goes among them, and who says to us, "Follow me." I believe that the compassionate Christ was there, with those people, in the form of twenty-seven of his people who were willing to obey. Compassion sometimes takes the form of obedience.
Today (Sunday) I will preach in English without a translator at the University Baptist Church, Mbarara. This afternoon, Larry will drive alone to Entebbe to pick up Patrick, Diana, and Andrew Forrester on Monday morning at 5:30. Tonight Melinda, Pamm, and I will begin a Bible study with university students on understanding the Bible. Tomorrow’s activities are not all certain. We may purchase some lumber so that Adam Pepper and Andrew might build some benches for the church in Nakinombe. That would be a compassionate thing to do. Patrick will be speaking to a high school at 5:00 PM (10:00 AM Houston) or so (after having arrived at 5:30 AM on a long flight). Pray for him. In the evening we’ll be doing the student Bible study again. More later.
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
We have enjoyed two days of ministry in Uganda. The Pastors' Conference has gone well. As I prepared for this trip I read through my journal of the days I spent here in 2002. One of my struggles then was the lack of a sense of connection to the pastors I was teaching. Part of that was language. I could not say anything in their vernacular, and some of them did not speak English. Part of it was situational. The conference was in Busheyni, an hour's drive from Mbarara, where we were staying with the Peppers. So every day we had to drive to the conference and our schedule required us to leave as soon as it was over in order to be ready for the evening activities. I'm sure other factors entered in as well. But I felt disconnected.
These last two days have been different. The conference is held at Larry's church, University Baptist Church, only a few minutes from his home. I have been able to spend more time with them. More of the pastors speak English this time, and as I talk I can see their responses. I am able to be present for their worship time, which is only to be experienced and not described. And, I'm sure, that having been here before has readied me in ways that could not have been there before.
On Tuesday we studied about the nature of God's Word as both human and divine. In the first session we talked about the inspiration of Scripture and its authoritative claim on our lives. In the second session we talked about the human dimensions of the Bible and the need for us to be faithful interpreters of its meaning. The pastors engaged the discussion enthusiastically. I could not stay for lunch with them that day, because I promised them I would prepare some written materials on the subject that could be distributed to them. They applauded. Literally. So I came home and worked on the handouts in the afternoon.
Melinda, Jenna, and Pamm joined two teams of the Words of Hope ministry of UBC and went to the villages to visit in the homes of AIDS patients. Finding the people, and finding them at home was a challenge. With no phones and no addresses visiting a specific person is difficult. But in each case they found someone to visit, although the effort required nearly four hours. They spend an hour to an hour and a half with the patients, listening to their needs, sharing Scripture, checking on their medications, and praying for them. I want to write more about the HIV/AIDS situation in Africa later, perhaps tomorrow.
On Tuesday evening we once more had guests for dinner. This time it was Skip and Kirk, two missionaries who work with World Venture, the missionary arm of Conservative Baptists. They have come to Mbarara for the Pastors' Conference because they work with Baptist pastors in leadership training in another part of the country. We enjoyed another evening of story-telling, heart-sharing, and laughter. They do a lot of that around here.
Wednesday I taught a practical method of Bible study, involving "the PRESS method" (Pray for Guidance, Read the Passage, Examine the Text, Say it back to God, Share it with Others). I encouraged them to examine the biblical text they are studying much like Dr. Pepper examines his patients -- ask lots of questions, observe everything you can, decide what it all means, and determine a course of action. I taught them how to use the "SPACE Questions" as a means of applying the text to their lives (Sin to Confess? Promise to Believe? Action to Avoid? Commandment to Obey? Example to Follow?) and to ask theological questions: What does the passage teach about God? About humanity? About sin? About redemption. Again, these pastors were eager to think and talk about the work of biblical interpretation. Today I'll be teaching about the use of the Bible in their own spiritual formation.
Alyso is the "regional pastor." He serves as the pastor of a congregation about two hours from here, but also is a kind of mentor to younger pastors. He is a wise man who seems to know the right thing to say and how to say it succinctly. I have appreciated this quality as the pastors have discussed issues during the study. He asked me today whether I would consider coming back once a year and working like this with his pastors. Sounds good to me.
Larry did not attend the Pastors' Conference on Wednesday. That is his day for the AIDS clinic. The clinic is currently seeing 4000 patients a month. Adam went with his dad to help out. That morning they saw more than 90 people.
Melinda and Jenna once more participated in the AIDS visitation in the morning, while Pamm stayed home to prepare to lead a working women's Bible study in the early evening at the Pepper's house. Melinda and Jenna joined me at the church to have lunch with the pastors. We had a traditional meal of matoke, posho, beans, groundnut (peanut) sauce, rice, and fried cabbage. All this is piled in large quantities in a big bowl and is eaten with the hands. Actually, just the right hand.
In the afternoon, I returned email and then went with Barry (the new IMB missionary), Jared (Barry's 10 year old son), Carrie (the journeyman nurse), Debbie (Carrie's friend who is visiting), and Alysius, a member of UBC who was our translator. We drove to a nearby village to do biblical storying, a method of sharing the gospel with people who are not literate. This was the third week they told stories in this particular village. We walked past red-brown mud huts, through a banana field, and sat on short wooden benches under an avocado tree. It was about 4:30, the sky was clear, and a cool wind blew through the banana trees.
In a short time, the beautiful, but troubled people of the village gathered with us. They came in their brightly colored dresses and shirts, faces shining. Greetings in Uganda are formal and effusive with much bowing and polite hand-shaking. If you are greeting someone older than yourself, or someone for whom you have deep respect, you hold your right arm with your left hand while shaking hands and bowing your head. Eventually twenty-nine men and women gathered for the Bible story. A few of the women brought children with them.
Barry told me as they assembled that likely half to three-quarters of them had HIV/AIDS. Through his interpreter Barry told the simple story of Creation from Genesis 1 and then Carrie and Debbie told the story of the Fall from Genesis 3. No preaching or exposition was involved, just telling the story. Jared held up simple line-drawing pictures to illustrate the story while his dad or Carrie and Debbie shared the narrative. People listened intently.
It took only a few minutes to tell the stories. Then Barry asked the group to tell the stories back to him as he held up first one and then another of the dozen or so pictures he had used. The villagers became an enthusiastic group of story-tellers themselves. When they were finished, Barry encouraged them to tell those stories to others this week. One man testified as to how he had told the previous week's story to a group in another village during the past week.
Then Alysius asked for prayer requests. One elderly woman named Grace needed prayer for a physical need. She had been bitten or stung by an insect on her breast (which she proceeded to expose and show us), so that it was terribly swollen and causing great discomfort. A little girl of ten or so asked for prayer for herself and her four siblings. Their parents had both died of AIDS recently and the children were living alone, caring for each other. A grandmother, who could hardly have been forty, had her grandson tied to her back. The child was only a few months old. She was caring for him now, because both his parents had died of AIDS. We listened and then we prayed. This group is not far from becoming a church.
Afterwards, Carrie and Debbie took Grace aside and examined her, gave her some Ibuprofen (all they had with them), made her promise to make her way to the clinic in Mbarara on Thursday. One woman, smiling, made her way over to me and rubbed my arm, apparently amazed to see hair growing on a man's arm. Children smiled and huddled around us all. Next Wednesday we will return and I will be the story-teller, sharing the account of Cain and Abel.
While we were in the village, Pamm and Melinda stayed for the working women's Bible study Sally Pepper began in her home a few weeks ago. Thirty women showed up for the study. Pamm was the guest teacher. I don't know what all she said, but Adam Pepper said that from his bedroom next to the living room where they gathered, he heard lots of laughter. Nurses from the hospital, a visiting doctor, and women from the community attended. They were leaving when I arrived, and their faces told me they had had a really good time. Pamm will teach the group again next Wednesday.
Melinda, Jenna, and Pamm will go on Words of Hope visits again this morning. After the Pastor's Conference, I will help Larry and Adam pack up trucks with things we will take to the village tomorrow, where we will hold a medical clinic and show the Jesus Film. More than 30 of us will travel to Lyantonde, about an hour from here. We will conduct the clinic and show the film on Friday evening, spend the night in tents, and then we will see patients again on Saturday.
So far, the time here has been all that I have hoped and prayed that it would be.
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Monday, June 13, 2005
We arrived in Entebbe at 5:15 A.M., twenty-five minutes ahead of schedule. Larry Pepper was there to meet us. Jet lag hit us all pretty hard. Although all our luggage arrived with us, I’m still waiting for my brain to catch up with my body. We climbed into Larry’s Land Cruiser and made the four hour trip to Mbarara, crossing the Equator along the way.
The pastors’ conference begins tomorrow. Seventy Baptist pastors from surrounding villages have already begun to gather at the University Baptist Church, Mbarara. They will be staying in the church building all week. I’ll be teaching during the mornings and early afternoons. Others will be teaching later in the day. They have meetings scheduled in the evenings.
It is 5:30 AM, local time, but my body is certain that it is 10:30 PM. I was wide awake at 3:00, and finally got up after an hour and a half of tossing in the bed. Two calls to prayer are going out at this hour. God has dispatched a very vocal bird to sing just outside my window. Across a valley, at least two miles from here, a voice blares out in Arabic from the minaret of a mosque, summoning the faithful Muslim to prayer. I prefer the bird.
Yesterday afternoon I went with Larry into town to pick up a Bible cover he had ordered for Adam at a leather shop. The little shop was lined with sandals and shoes made from the hide of the Ankore cattle that are raised here. The proprietor proudly showed his work to Larry who thanked him and paid him in Ugandan shillings (1 U.S. dollar is approximately 1750 Ugandan shillings, so things are priced in the hundreds of thousands). We left there for the police station, located near the university and near the church. Larry took the chief a letter from the International Mission Board detailing the pastors’ conference that would be held at the church all week, let him know that the pastors would not be causing a lot of trouble, and assuring him that we had arranged for security. Then we went to the church to meet the pastors who were gathering.
Twenty-nine pastors had gathered already. Four cooks who have been hired to provide their meals were working outside the church, cooking matoke (a hard banana that is steamed in banana leaves and looks liked baked yellow squash and tastes like nothing), posho (a cornmeal dish like grits), fried cabbage, and ground nut (peanut) sauce. They cooked over a eucalyptus fire, with three large stones holding up the pots. These four women will spend most of the day preparing the three meals this week.
I saw Pastor Vianny, whom I remembered from 2002, and Pastor Ezra, who was my translator then. I met Pastor George, who, along with Ezra, will graduate with a certificate from the seminary in November. Some of the pastors speak English and some do not. Even the ones who do speak a different language than I do, and communication is challenging. These are bright, dedicated men who serve God’s churches in Uganda. Most are not well educated, however. A sixth grade education is about average.
After meeting with them in a kind of opening service, we returned to Larry’s home for dinner with the other missionaries who work here. Carrie is a nurse, an IMB journeyman who has been here for six months. She works with the AIDS visitation program. Debbie, her friend from college, also a nurse, raised on the mission field in Nigeria, is here visiting for three weeks. A new family joined the Peppers here just last month – Barry and Scarlett Wilks and their four children. The Wilks’ are from Tennessee. He is working in church planting. Sally prepared a delicious dinner and we sat and talked until around 9:00, when I began to fade.
At 9:30 this morning I will be teaching my first session at the pastors’ conference. The theme for the week is 2 Timothy 2:15: "Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth." This morning I will be talking about the inspiration of the Bible and the story of how the Bible has come to us. Melinda, Jenna, and Pamm will be accompanying Carrie and Barry on the Words of Hope (AIDS visitation) Ministry.
As I looked over the faces of the nearly thirty pastors last night and brought them greetings from UBC, Houston, I thought what a privilege of grace it is that we do the work that we do as pastors – sharing God’s Word and caring for God’s people. Whether that is done in an African village or in a Texas metroplex, it is a privilege.
Serving as a pastor is not a profession. It is a calling – unsought and undeserved. Pastors do not have some special connection with God. We are part of the body as are all the other parts. And perhaps each part knows the sense of gratitude that comes from serving. I hope so. However, I do know that what I do with my life is a privilege of grace. I find others who serve as pastors understand that as well. True, I know of some who do not treat that role as a privilege of grace, but who think of themselves as "privileged" people in another sense entirely, demanding rights and claiming "privileges" for themselves. That is a great misunderstanding of the role.
To be with God’s people in their walk with God, listening to their stories, praying with them and for them, sitting with them in crisis, sharing with them in the work of Christ is nothing short of an undeserved honor. To stand before God’s people with the Word of God and proclaim its truth is an awesome responsibility. To be trusted by them to do these things is humbling.
I don’t say all this glibly. The title "pastor" is an honorable one to me. It is how I describe myself on forms when asked about my occupation. I don’t put "clergy," because that puts me in a class separate from the "laity" and is bad theology. I don’t put "preacher" because that title bothers me somewhat. It smacks of either legalists or charlatans. T.V. "preachers" fleece the flock, they do not care for it. No "T.V. pastors" exist in the world, because it is not possible to be a T.V. pastor. "Pastor" is a relational word. Pastoring is a role lived out in community.
That is truth I have learned, not from books, but mostly from the people of University Baptist Church over the last eighteen years. When I accepted the call to the church I understood that I would no longer be a "professor," but a "pastor." I was not entirely sure I liked the change. I knew enough pastors (really "preachers") who gave the role a less than attractive image to me. I was not sure I wanted to identify with that crowd. And although I enjoyed teaching university students, I never really wanted to be a seminary professor and teach "preachers."
Along the way I have had a change of perspective. I have come to know pastors and to love pastors. I enjoy being with them. I find teaching seminary classes to be a rich experience. Mentoring relationships with younger pastors are some of the most rewarding relationships in my life these days. I think that change has come because of the people at UBC who have helped me learn the meaning of the word a little better.
So, this week I will be with my fellow pastors, African shepherds who care for God’s people and share God’s word in places I cannot even imagine. Still they do what I do, and they know the privilege.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
We arrived safely in London at 11:00 local time. We took the tube into the city, ate lunch off Picadilly Square, then took the tube to St. Paul's Cathedral and joined in the Evensong service at 3:15, about the time Sunday UBC-ers were gathered for worship at home. It was a beautiful contemplative service. We're in the Heathrow Airport now, waiting to board our flight to Entebbe in about 45 minutes. Thanks for your prayers. I'll check in when I can.
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Last night I did something, for the second time in three years, that would have been unthinkable to a Baptist pastor a mere generation ago (and I’m sure to many now). I danced. The word itself used to drip of sin. I joined Jenna in the father-daughter dance at her recital, in a church.
Now, to say I actually “danced” would be like saying I “built the sandcastle” in the AIA Sandcastle Competition, or “flew the L-39.” I’m not losing touch with reality. In one case I moved the stick around while a professional sat two feet away ready to yank it from my hands in a split second. In the other, I hauled orange Home Depot buckets of salt water from the Gulf of Mexico and shoveled sand. In this case, I tried to be standing in the right place doing the right things while my graceful daughter danced around me with Simon & Garfunkel’s Bridge Over Troubled Water playing in the background.
I was present and participated. But to say I “danced” would be an exaggeration. (My goal was not to fall on my butt like I did at rehearsal on Monday. And not to grimace in fear while I did my part.)
“Walk down the aisle when the interlude begins. Stand at the foot of the stage while she runs over and puts her hands on your shoulders and extends one leg backwards like an ice skater gliding across the rink. When she leaves, go up the stairs and (gulp) onto the stage. Kneel and wait for her to run to you and put her foot on your leg, then hold her waist while she poses again, both arms and one foot extended (hers, not yours). Don’t drop her. Get up (the knees!), hold her hands while she twirls into you, let go of the left hand, then away. Follow her and hold her waist while she strikes another elegant pose. Then hold on to her waist and stay up with her as she runs across the stage (don’t trip!). Wait for her while she and the other dancing daughters meet together in center stage. They’re turning out now. Ready. She’s running to you. Dip down a bit, because you’re taller than she is. She is going to jump and you must catch her on your hip and spin around with her. If you make this, you’re clear. Here she comes…up… good… around…excellent. Let her down. Now the other dads and daughters are arriving on stage. Kneel. She balances with one hand on your shoulder. Lights down. Applause. Up (the knees!).”
But Jenna danced. Elegant, strong, graceful, beautiful. I was taken by it. I found it hard to concentrate on my part. Actually the father-daughter dance began for us thirteen years ago. I was the only male in the delivery room at the Woman’s Hospital of Texas on January 31, 1992 when she arrived. We’ve been dancing ever since, and in pretty much the same way. I’ve tried to be at the right place at the right time doing the right things while she flowed around me.
After watching Shall We Dance? a few weeks ago, and then seeing Dancing with the Stars on television this week, I suggested to Melinda that perhaps we should take ballroom dancing lessons when we get back from Africa. She said she thought she was not tall enough. Jenna looked at me, rolled her eyes, and said, “I don’t think your height will be your biggest problem.”
Father’s are often in big trouble when daughters arrive. I recall that Jack Bolt, father of three I think, stopped me at church the first Sunday after Jenna was born. “You better drown her today,” he advised. “After three or four days they really start to grow on you.” I did not take his advice, but I heard his heart.
We danced close when Jenna was small. I held her at every opportunity. I sat her in my lap and teased her with ice cream, her wide open mouth following the spoon patiently while I circled it over her head. While still a toddler she used to respond to the question, “Where’s your Daddy?” by lifting her little finger and twirling it around. That hasn’t changed much.
We’ve danced through rituals, which she loved as a child. We had a good-bye ritual we went through each morning as I headed for work, a litany of six or seven lines we recited each day. And a good night ritual continued until only recently with another half-dozen liturgical lines and kisses. We have danced with board games, family vacations, and a ton of books we have read aloud together. We have danced with worship and ministry and missions together. We have danced through family pain and loss. We have danced with lots of laughter. Not all of it has felt as awkward as the recital.
Last night, however, I danced not with a child, but a growing adolescent, a young woman who is someday going to dance away. That’s almost impossible to imagine. You hold them in the delivery room, blink your eyes, and they’ve grown. The father-daughter dance will still go on for a time, but not for a long time, I expect.
My prayer is that she learn to dance to that music that her Creator has placed in her heart, to the rhythm of joy and love and redemption that is found in Christ. I will be there to watch and to hold her up when she needs me to. I’ll still try to be in the right place at the right time doing the right thing, as clumsy as I may be.
And now I’m preparing to learn another dance, the grandfather-granddaughter dance. (Hopefully that will never have to be performed on-stage.) The dance is scheduled to begin in August when two young ladies arrive and I prepare to be smitten again. And I get to watch my sons begin the father-daughter dance themselves.
Life is good.
Thursday, June 09, 2005
When I packed up things from my study to see me through three months of sabbatical, I hauled a stack of books home. Mostly these are books I’ve collected since January in anticipation of having some extra time for reading from April through July. I always overestimate how much reading I can actually get done. I’ve been know to take five books with me on an overnight trip. And I did it again.
Armed with more than thirty “must reads” I entered the sabbatical months. Of course, my dreams of having entire days to sit and read, sip coffee, and think were just that -- dreams. The first three weeks involved a frantic effort to finish a home remodeling project upstairs that had begun in early December. We managed that. During long days of painting, laying flooring, and nailing up trim work I did little reading. However, I had purchased an audio book I listened to – Tony Hendra’s New York Times Best-Seller, Father Joe: The Man Who Saved My Soul. Hendra tells a moving story of his life-long relationship with “Father Joe,” an unusual Benedictine monk whose spiritual vision and direction saw this wayward soul through a struggling adolescence, a failed marriage, substance abuse, and a quest for meaning. Father Joe is a compassionate saint. That the book sold so many copies may indicate the spiritual hunger of a wayward generation.
Traveling to Mexico filled most of the next two weeks with more activity. Reading was done in the cracks of time that could be found in the early mornings, mostly. The fare was a little heavier. I read Philip Jenkins, The Next Christendom: The Coming of Global Christianity (Oxford, 2002). Jenkins is a historian who details a fascinating scenario of Christianity in our world. He demonstrates the ways in which Christianity is spreading rapidly in many places, with the result that it is moving south (away from Europe and North America as centers) and is becoming darker (African, Latin American, Asian). The “average Christian” today should be thought of as a woman living in a Nigerian village or a Brazilian favela. This shift from the Western and Northern Hemispheres to the Southern and Eastern ones is almost invisible to most Northern Christians. We still speak glibly of what “Christians think” or of what “most Christians believe” as if we represented the church in the world. Contrary to what we hear in the news, Islam is not on the verge of taking over the world. In Africa, Asia, and Latin America Christianity is making huge strides, and not because of the work of Western missionaries. In fact, Christians from the South may soon be working hard to evangelize North America.
When I got home three weeks ago, I had assignments to prepare for the journey to Africa and Thailand. That has kept me occupied during the day. But I have found the time to read a couple of other books that challenged my thinking. At Melinda’s recommendation, I read Sue Monk Kidd’s The Dance of the Dissident Daughter. I had read her Secret Life of Bees last year. Bees is a novel, and a good story. Dance is her spiritual autobiography. Monk tells of her journey from being reared in a Southern Baptist Church in the Deep South to her present understanding of the spiritual life in terms that incorporate a feminist spirituality. She rightly exposes the patriarchal system that has for millennia treated women as less than men, and deals with her own struggle against that system, especially in the church. I’ll probably read her new novel, The Mermaid Chair, before the summer is over. It is a fictional account of that same journey, I gather.
Today I will finish reading Walter Wink’s The Powers that Be. Wink is a biblical scholar who has produced a series of thorough studies on the power structures of our world: Naming the Powers: The Language of Power in the New Testament; Unmasking the Powers: The Invisible Forces that Determine Human Existence; Engaging the Powers: Discernment and Resistance in a World of Domination; and When the Powers Fall: Reconciliation in the Healing of Nations. I own these, but have not read them yet. They were not even in the stack of thirty I set aside for the summer. The Powers That Be is a popular summary of the ideas in the others. Wink exposes the way that human institutions inevitably fall to the myth of redemptive violence. We grow up believing that violence is the solution to our problems. It shows up everywhere, from abuse in homes, to the patriarchal system Monk wrote about, to conflict in the Middle East. He lays alongside that cultural myth the teaching of Jesus on non-violence (not non-resistance or passive-ism) and offers it as Jesus’ “third way” (between violence and passivity). He demonstrates how it has been an effective way of bringing change in many parts of our world, especially in the 20th century.
Along the way I have read “in” a couple of others that I hope to finish soon. Henri Nouwen’s Compassion: A Reflection on the Christian Life is a powerful one. He calls us to compassion through a life of obedience. Since God is the God of compassion, since God already has compassion on the hurts of people, we are simply called to live in relationship and obey God. As we do, we become expressions of God’s compassion in the world. But the challenge is to live with a responsive and listening relationship to God. Also, Nouwen insists, compassion is something we do together, in community. None of us can be the compassion of Christ to the entire world, to all its hurts, to all its needs. We do it together. I have only a couple of chapters left in this one.
Last fall I was given a copy of Sabbath: Finding Rest, Renewal and Delight in Our Busy Lives, by Wayne Muller. It has thirty-five short chapters with suggested exercises at the end of each. I’ve been reading a couple of chapters each week this spring. I’m about half-way through. I recommend it.
I have read about a third of Reggie McNeal’s A Work of Heart: Understanding How God Shapes Spiritual Leaders. He reviews the lives of Moses, David, Paul, and Jesus and identifies six influences that God uses to shape leaders’ lives: Culture (the times and environment in which one is raised), Call (the leader’s personal sense of call by God to mission), Community (the people who shape and sustain the leader), Communion (the leader’s personal relationship with God), Conflict (the leader’s engagement of destructive forces in life and ministry), and Commonplace (the daily choices of living). McNeal underscores that God creates leaders to share his heart with his people. So the spiritual formation of a leader’s life is not a private matter. It impacts the leader’s constellation of followers and extends beyond the leader’s own life and lifetime.
One other read this summer is Patricia Cranton’s Professional Development as Transformative Learning: New Perspectives for Teachers of Adults. She calls professional teachers (I’m reading it as “pastors”) to be involved in a self-directed program of “transformative learning.” Cranton teaches a path of constant reflection on our work and revision of our processes. It is a bit dry, but helpful.
And I continue my way through the Bible with you, reading Eugene Peterson’s paraphrase, The Message.
So what’s in the stack that may or may not make it by August? In no particular order, just the way they are lined up on my shelf:
I’ll post on them as I finish them. But unless Amazon.com goes out of business in the next couple of months, I’ll probably just be adding to the shelf.
Ed Friedman, Friedman’s Fables
Bruce Feiler, Abraham: A Journey to the Heart of Three Faiths
Kegan Lahey, How the Way We Talk Can Change the Way We Work
Robert Lewis & Wayne Cordiero, Culture Shift: Transforming Your Church From the Inside Out
M. Rex Miller, The Millennium Matrix: Reclaiming the Past, Reframing the Future of the Church
Don Miller, Blue Like Jazz (because everyone I know is reading it)
Dallas Willard, Renovation of the Heart (a re-read)
Roberta Gilbert, The Eight Concepts of Bowen Theory
Tetsunao Yamamori and C. Rene Padilla, eds., The Local Church, Agent of Transformation: An Ecclesiology for Integral Mission
Erwin McManus, An Unstoppable Force: Daring to Become the Church GOD Had in Mind
Ronald J. Sider, Philip N. Olson, & Heidi Holland Unruh, Churches That Make a Difference: Reaching Your Community with Good News and Good Works
Eddie Gibbs, Church Next: Quantum Changes in How We Do Ministry
Ken Pohly, Tranforming the Rough Places
Ronald Sider, Good News and Good Works
Vinay Samuel & Chris Sugden, Mission as Transformation: A Theology of the Whole Gospel
Roland Allen, The Spontaneous Expansion of the Church (a book written about a hundred years before its time. I read it in seminary and need to read it again)
Michael Frost & Alan Hirsch, The Shaping of Things to Come: Innovation and Mission for the 21st Century Church
Eugene Peterson, Christ Plays in Ten Thousand Places: A Conversation in Spiritual Theology (the latest by one of my favorites)
Gary Jennings, Aztec (historical fiction that unpacks some of the Indian culture we saw in Mexico)
John Grisham, The Broker (because I’ve read all of his others)
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Another first for me – participating in the American Institute of Architects highly competitive sandcastle competition on Galveston beach. It is a bit of an exaggeration to say I “participated.” Melinda and I showed up to see our son Alan’s project. He works for James Ray Architects. And he and Jim Ray were there to build their work of art. Their initial design had some flaws, so they decided the night before to switch and produce a manhole cover. Since their workforce consisted of only Alan and Jim, and Kathryn, my daughter-in-law who is soon to deliver, Melinda and I pitched in by hauling some water, walking on the site to pack it down, and throwing some sand around. A couple of other more skilled hands eventually showed up.
I did get to wear a yellow wrist band and received a free floppy-hat from one of the vendors. Eighty four teams were competing in several categories. They each had only eight hours to transform ten cubic yards of sand into their vision. Pretty amazing, really. The sewer manhole idea was a bit of an environmental sarcasm, I think, Galveston Bay being what it is.
I have never been on the beach with so many thousands of people. The swim suit police should have been handing out tee shirts to some of the folks there. No one really wants to see what some of the people were sharing with the world.
Sandcastle art is so fleeting. Even with the 24 hour guard that Galveston provided to protect the displays through Sunday, they will all perish. The wind, the tides, gravity, human destructiveness will cause everyone of them to return to their former state of mere sand.
Here we are, works of art – God’s handiwork (poesis) according to Ephesians 2. But we are fragile and short-lived. Formed of the dust of the ground, we are destined to return to dust. Life is brief and fleeting. Scripture says we are vapors that appear for a short time and then vanish. We are compared to the weeds of the field that floursh, blossom, and then perish. Life is brief at its best.
This week I spoke with a young man whose father, my age, is facing the last few weeks of his life in a bout with cancer. He wanted help with planning a funeral, but it is likely his dad will be gone before I’m back from Africa.
The observation of our human fragility and mortality is not threatening to me, however. I confess with millions before me and millions around me the truth that “I believe in the resurrection of the dead and the life everlasting.” That is a truth that has become more, not less, real to me over the years. The reason I confess that hope is because of an earlier portion of the ancient creed:
I believe in God, the Father almighty, creator of heaven and
I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord.
He was conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit and born of the
He suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was
He descended to the dead.
On the third day he rose again.
He ascended into heaven,and is seated at the right hand of the
He will come again to judge the living and the dead.
These are not mere words to me. They are the combined corporate experience of disciples of Jesus over centuries. As Rich Mullins put it: “I believe what I believe is what makes me who I am. I did not make it, no it is making me. It is the very truth of God and not the invention of any man.”
So the works of human hands amaze us for the moment, but they will perish. The glory of human lives attracts us, but it will fade. The beauty of human beings enchants us, but it will disappear. Like sandcastles.
What will last will be that which has connected with God through Jesus Christ. I want to live toward that.
Thursday, June 02, 2005
“Fix” is a strange word. It can mean to repair something. You can fix your car when it is broken. It can mean to prepare something. You can fix your dinner, even if it is not broken. And it can mean to put something solidly in place, literally or metaphorically. A piece of furniture can be fixed to the floor or an idea can be fixed in your mind. You can have a fixed price on an item at a garage sale or the outcome of a basketball game can be fixed (which really means it’s broken). You can decide to get even with someone and say, “I’ll fix you.” You can have your pet cat fixed (and that is a good idea) and you can fix your eyes on something. You can fix atmospheric nitrogen by converting it to a stable form. You can fix a photographic print by treating it with chemicals so that it attains a permanent form. You can fix a biological specimen, such as a butterfly you’ve captured, so that it does not decay. Those are just its uses as a verb.
Fix is also a noun. You can be in a fix. You can get a fix on a distant object. You can get a chocolate fix (wait a minute, ok, I’m back). You can look for a quick fix to a problem. All that and more with just three letters.
Another use of the word intrigues me because it is part of my heritage. In Texas and other places in the South, you can be “fixing to do something” (pronounced: fick-sen + any infinitive). “Fixin’ to” is one of those Southern expressions many of us have grown up with. We know exactly what it means. It means to get ready, to prepare. “Fixin’ to,” along with “reckon” and “y’all” (plural, “all y’all) are part of the lingo of Texas, Mississippi, Alabama, and Georgia.
“Fixin’ to” means “to be about to do something; to plan to imminently.” But the 'plan' sense does not necessarily involve any preparation. It could mean “to be thinking about doing something,” as in:
“Honey, take the garbage out.”
“I’m fixin’ to.” (Or, in some places, "I'm a fixin' to.")
Well, I’m fixin’ to go to Africa and Thailand. That means, in this case, that I’m getting ready. Getting ready is involving lots of practical details: packing lists, visas, airline tickets, arranging for the house and dog to be cared for, taking the car to my son, and a hundred others laundry list items. It is also involving getting together presentations for a group of African village pastors (9 hours on biblical interpretation), a group of African university students (five sessions on understanding the Bible), and a group of American missionaries (caring for your own soul). Others who are making the trip have their own lists of things to do and people on the other side of the world are getting ready, because we are fixing to come. Then, a few weeks from now I’ll begin to make new preparations because I’ll be fixing to come back home.
I am struck with how much of our lives are lived in preparation for something. We begin each day by preparing to go out and end each day by preparing for bed. From the time we are in kindergarten we are living in a mode of preparation. Even when we have finished our education and begun a career, we are constantly preparing for something. We prepare for a wedding and a marriage. We prepare to move. Three times Melinda and I have prepared to receive a new child into our lives, buying the necessities, rearranging our home, getting necessary medical care. Now we are fixing to have two grandchildren.
Preparation is a part of God’s work. Moses prepared 80 years for a 40 year work. Jesus prepared 30 years for three years of ministry. Paul prepared in the deserts of Arabia. The stones in Solomon’s Temple were prepared by the stone cutters in the quarry so that the noise of the hammer and chisel would not be heard in the Temple. They were made to slide into place.
Almost everything we experience seems to be preparation for something else. God is constantly readying us for further service. Do you see the preparations going on in your life right now? Do you see the preparations God is making in our church? He is fixing to do something in your life, in our lives.
One thing we seldom think about, because of fear or because we regard it as morbid, is that we are fixing to die. Or at least we should be. Living this life really is preparation for something more. (Now I would also make the case that this life is not a dress rehearsal or a practice round, but is the real thing and should be taken seriously each and every day.) But this life is not all there is and we are human becomings who are fixing to live forever. We ought to be getting ready.
I reckon that’s all the musings I’ll offer all y’all for now. I’m fixing to study.